Monday, April 18, 2011

The Well is All Dried Up

This is a disclaimer that if breastfeeding makes you queasy, stop reading right now. I just had to quit breastfeeding Finley and bummed does not even begin to describe how I feel about it. Before I had Ella, if someone had told me I would breastfeed my baby for a year, I would have thought they were nuts. I knew nothing about it and found it to be a little strange. Then I had Ella and my thoughts about it completely changed. Maybe because it was so easy with her and other than dealing with the initial tough few weeks, it was a piece of cake. And my supply with ginormous. I mean, literally our freezer was full of nothing but frozen breast milk.

So, along came Finley and I thought sister 2 would be just like sister 1. They were both big babies at birth, look like twins, and it was easy with Ella, so I thought round 2 of breastfeeding was going to be just as easy right? Well, not so much. Since the beginning with Finley, I noticed I didn't make as much as I did with Ella. I tried not to think too much about it since I had always heard that what you pump is not a good indicator of how much your baby eats. I don't understand that, but I read it on the internet so it must be true right? I talked to our pediatrician about it, went on all sorts of supplements that make you smell like maple syrup, drank endless amount of water, let Finley nurse as long as she wanted, and did everything I could to increase my supply. Nothing seemed to make a long-term difference.

So, I've thrown in the towel. I'm sad and disappointed about it. But, luckily Finley devours her bottle and the transition to formula has been seamless. And as long as she's happy, healthy, and growing, I'm happy. On the plus side though, I can now have more than 1 beer or 1 glass of wine.

1 comment:

Camila said...

Do not get discouraged! They say any breast milk is better than none and you made it a solid 9 months which is no small feat. Weaning is def the end of an era and makes me think about my baby growing up. When I think about it and get sad I just tell Sean we'll have to have another! HA! You were smart to pump and freeze. Wish I had done better with that!